So this is the thing.....

I'm writing this against the backdrop of Sky News. An earthquake has hit Haiti. Impossible to understand the shock and horror and inability to cope there....a very poor country without the infrastructure to survive....

And I have to decide whether or not to have surgery which may help me - one small person on this planet - to live a life with less pain and more movement...

How on earth do you make these decisions? What factors do you take into account? On a personal level it is impossible to know the prognosis either if I do or if if I don't have surgery... On a very personal level it is impossible to know how you would cope with the pain. Or the possibility that things don't go according to plan....

But as a mum how do you weigh up the impact on your family if you go ahead and they have to cope with what can only be described as cr*p for a few months? As opposed to the possibility of - what - if it is left untreated?

As a wife how do you make everything work? In sickness and in health - easily said but the reality - catheters/morphine/blood transfusions/stitches/scars/braces/pain - did we sign up for this?

As a manager - a delightful team of hard working colleagues. Who need direction and support. How do you walk away? Even if just for a few weeks/months...?

Decisions, decisions. For now time to sleep....