Time also seems to fly when for whatever reason days begin to merge into one. Of course time itself is still moving at exactly the same rate -what's changed is our perception of it. And on reflection this perception has shifted dramatically on several occasions over the past months - weeks in particular - so very keen to blog about that later,
Meanwhile I feel the need to force something out regarding the past few days. It's not easy and good news is even as I am trying to do this the sleep fairy is sprinkling fairy sleep dust over my eyelids. Either that or the 10ml of Oramorph I took 20 minutes ago has been busy! I've just had a nice cup of tea too - we're gradually getting better organised - something to record here now perhaps as it requires less brain effort than a debate on perceptions of time!
On arrival home it was just wonderful to lie on my own bed bed - but now of course it has a memory foam topper making it higher and softer! It was wonderful to be back with the family as even when I sleep with them in the room (how rude!) I sleep better for just knowing they are there. At first I found the space very limited and really missed being able to have everything within reach. Then my mum suggested bringing a set of shelves down from the bathroom upstairs - perfect! Then Dave cleared everything I won't be needing for little while off my dressing table and into cupboards - more space!! We ordered the table that sits on/over the bed - suddenly life's essentials - in no particular order here - are within arm's length. I will list them and start over tomorrow on what's been occurring these past few days that's made time fly so...
I have to have a jug of iced water and glass next to me at all times. Guess it's the drugs but I am permanently thirsty. It also takes at least half a pint to swallow each dose of tablets - currently 27 tablets in total ( have feeling I may be repeating myself here - please bear with me! If not then it is deja vu -another side effect - kicking in!)
The little netbook as another essential - in ways I never imagined it would be. Keeping in touch - email, skype, msn, FB, this blog, the SSO forum. Even in hospital I felt included and that helps with the loneliness. It's going in for a chec up tomorrow (still having problems with "k") and I will miss it so much and need to find a substitute! My mobile is here too - I love the text messages I'm just sorry I rarely reply. Please forgive me - no offence intended - just not great at texting with an unfamiliar phone. I'll be in touch soon!
Then there are some books and magazines. I have no interest in books/magazines/DVDs (though the boxed set of Sex and the City is calling me...) or much else for that matter. But that doesn't mean I won't be one day soon so please keep them coming. I have some knitting here - done very little so far but Dave set me off on a new project this evening - more of that on what may develop into a bit of a parallel world type blog (the Teddys have been very busy....!)
Of course there are my drugs - not as many as I would like to see and I am sure the Battle of the Prescription will feature on here soon enough! And my machine that I regularly suck into to stretch my lungs.
There's a light - which hopefully dims enough so as not to disturb Ian (he seems to be in dreamland just now) and - utter bliss - always a Molton Browne candle burning (not at night obviously...) Thank you to Graham and Eden for such generosity.
A soft hairbrush; eight hour cream and lip protector; moisturiser; bio oil - all designed to stop me looking like a wrinkled prune (albeit one with excellent posture). My brace without which I must not walk even as far as the toilet, my glasses (ones for with the contact lenses, ones for without...) fruit, dried fruit, chocolate, pens, paper, thank you cards (when I have read all your lovely cards they go on display and I do plan to respond eventually...)
I could probably go on but anyone considering surgery might lie to bear these suggestions in mind.
Well - time to rearrange the memory foam wedge (what a great investment) and try to sleep a bit longer. Exciting day tomorrow - lots to blog about and a PlayStation lesson" Hoping to see some friends especially now that the Clinical Nurse Specialist has suggested this is a good idea to keep me smiling. Text me if you are up for a short visit and don't forget you'll be the one boiling the kettle (though the flas served its purpose tonight)
Hope you are all sleeping well
Lots of love